I have no idea why i set up this blog as i have always been someone who doesn't wants to be in the limelight or to be found on the internet, that is also why i close down my facebook.
I just feel very upset with everything that has happened on this day........ 23rd April 2010.
Today is supposed to be a advance birthday celebration for my mum. I remembered thinking and scouting for my mum's birthday present in a happy mood ever since the day before. My only mum... should i give her the $599 set of Taka Jewelleries which consists of gold & a few pcs of diamond or only the pendant or only the earrings or only the ring since i am quite tight on my budget. I couldnt make up my mind and thus, on this very day, i went to scout for a present for my mum during my lunch time.After walking for almost 15mins up and down Parkway Parade, i finally give up and called my elder sister. She knows my mum wanted to buy the award winning whitening essence from SK2 and so, without hesitation, i rush into Isetan, looking for the counter of SK2. Finally, i found it. Feeling a bit heartache to have to spend $200 for a 30ml of it / to spend $300 for a 50ml of it, i paused and decided to go for my lunch first so that i can have a careful consideration before i buy it, I called my sister again, telling her the price and i guess she knows im quite broke, she agreed to share with me on the gift. I was so delighted as my burden was lightened by a bit. Happily, i went back upstairs to buy the gift and signed up the membership card for my mum before i go for my lunch. But my lunch was not a peaceful one......
i saw a coffee shop stall uncle & auntie quarelling with a customer, a woman in her 40s..... the entire story i wasn't too clear but i am also one of the KPO one who sat at the vegetarian stall to "witness" the entire episode of the quarrel. It seems silly to me that a quarrel with a little bit of small fights in between can result in policemen coming to resolve the matter......In short, it was that the stall Auntie threw a plate of rice on the Anutie customer, causing her to have her head and an eye injured. The husband of the stall auntie who is very very big size came out and wanted to beat the Anutie customer and so on.......i went back to the office exceeding my lunch hours but brought back the abv exciting stories to my colleagues and biz manager.
As usual, back to the office and i start my battle with work again. So delightful that my husband actually came to fetch me home from a tired day of work, i really look forward to dinner tonight which i have withdrawn $$ as i hope to give my mum, my sis and my bro a treat tomight.
Who knows, things changed in within a few hrs time.............
When i reached my mum's place, i saw my brother haad his fill. I ask him can he still eat later on since we are going out to have dinner and he said yes. So im fine and happy still. Then my mum came home and i ask my mum where we are going to eat for dinner. To my surprise, she said that she has eaten and my sister came down from her room and ate the Mee Goreng that my mum brought home. I ask them if they are able to eat still later on and they say that they are not going out for dinner anymore...........it is like a bomb dropped onto me. I am so very hungry as i have my lunch at 12pm and purposely waited till my mum knocked off from work and her friend to arrive at 9pm to have dinner together and this is what i expect. I was very very dissapointed but still, i sat quitely on the sofa, becareful not to lost my coll since it is my mum's birthday. My sis however came to the living room after her fill and asked me what happened. I answered her that i thought we agreed to have dinner and so on, and she suddenly just say that my tonality is so unhappy for what.. !!! I just say how i feel since she asked me and yet, she have to dampen the whole situation further.. I really don't understand y she has to do this. I believe my mum heard our conversation and she said, don't celebrate lah, you go home you go home.... take your things back (referring to the gift). I tolerated, tears filling my eyes, i tolerated and sit on the dining table chair. My mum's best friend arrived with a cake and i forced myself to smile and said helo, but i knew and can feel that my face is very red, trying to stop my tears from rolling. Finally, when they settle down, i couldnt hold back the tears from my eyes anymore, it just dropped. I do not want to make things bad and so, walk out of the house. I know it is rude to walk away when guest are around and i didn't even say goodbye, but does anyone knows how i feel......Anyone , just somebody in this world, do you sense my sadness? I have tried everything i could to want to make my mother have a happy birthday, a good one and an unforgettable one. I have done it, done it in another way which also term as an unforgettable one, but, in a different way..........
As for my dinner, 2 slices of bread with cheese and HL milk, with a bit of tears rolled into it.....
Friday, April 23, 2010
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